I’ve had something on my mind that is just bugging the crap out of me. It’s this question people ask me all the time. Doesn’t matter who I am talking to, somehow or other it always comes up. The dreaded question is either:
A: “Does your Master know you do that?”
or B: “And how does your Master feel about you doing that?”
These questions are nearly always asked about my work online in my video chat room. Sometimes about other things, but mainly this. Look, I know a lot of people consider watching porn, or playing online, to be cheating.. But not me OR Master. I’ve talked to him a LOT about this, especially in the beginning. If he didn’t want me to do it, I wouldn’t. Plain and simple. Thing is, at the end of the day, the people I play with in my chat room – I don’t play with anywhere else ever.
I don’t meet people in real life. I don’t play with them on yahoo or skype, or anything else. What I do is to provide a fantasy for someone for a little while, and then I go back to life. It’s fun, but I don’t develop relationships with these people.
I asked Master recently something which was bugging me. I asked him what would happen if I somehow (never going to happen) was on the news or something, and his family or co-workers found out what I did. Would he be ashamed? Would he be embarrassed? I knew what the answer was, but I had to hear him say it.
You know what he said? He laughed at the question, and told me if word got out, he would just be proud. I make a lot better money from my futon in my work room than I would by taking a train into town and cashiering for a couple hours a day. At no other job have I been able to work comfortably in my house wearing lingerie, and taking breaks when I want. I’ve never worked at any other job where I could set my own hours.
I don’t mean to get angry and frustrated here, but come on? Do you honestly think I would do something if Master didn’t approve of it? How could I keep it going? I have a public page online, for goodness sakes. Not only that, but this isn’t just about him being my Master. He is also my husband. We are married. Marrying a person sort of implies that they approve of you.
Basically what I am trying to get out, is that OUR morals are different then your average person’s. I get that. I LIKE being this way. But don’t go asking me a question like that, when you must know what the answer is. Do you really think that I am hiding this behind his back?
Sorry for the angry post, it’s just something that I had to get off my chest.
And OMG, the trampoline is so fun! ^^ I have to wear a scarf when I’m bouncing on it though, because the metal collar bounces on my collar bones and bruises the hell out of my neck. lol. :) Still, even Master was having fun with it! =^.^=