Now that I have your attention – yes, I’ve decided to stop being vegan. It is something I’ve been talking with Master about for a while now, and it wasn’t until recently that I decided to just quit. Now before you go thinking that this is a nutritional thing, it isn’t. I was vegan for a year and a half, and a couple months ago, I got my annual blood work done. All of my blood levels were perfect, I wasn’t deficient in anything: protein, iron, b12. You name it, I had healthy levels. I still think that anyone can maintain a healthy body being vegan. I still think that you can get enough protein. I still think there is no huge health difference between eating animals and eating plants only.
When I look back on my journey as a vegan, I am thankful that it is something I did. I would never have learned to cook. There are so many foods I never would have tried and learned to love. I would not have learned that half of your plate should consist of vegetables (vegan, vegetarian, or not!), I would not have learned how to eat at any restaurant being vegan. I would not have learned about the dairy and meat industry. I am grateful that I learned everything that I did. I’m grateful to the people I met along the way who helped me when I was having trouble. I’m grateful for learning things about my body that I never knew before.
There are a few things which have prompted this. One of them I will not be going into, because it is highly personal and not something I would like to share. The next thing about my decision is a bit disturbing to me. The fact of the matter is, no matter how much I would like to pretend that it does not, leather turns me on immensely. It doesn’t matter if you tell me what the animal suffered to get me that leather. It doesn’t matter if I know where the leather comes from. The smell and feel of leather (especially when it is binding me in some way) is a major turn on. I love it. The fact that I know where leather comes from and I am still turned on by it is disturbing to myself. I do not mean that it disturbs me that others are into leather. Leather is a common kink, after all. I disagree with how it is produced in most cases though, so I do find it disturbing that even though I do not like its production, I am willing to go back to using it. Call me a monster if you must. I do not care. I have decided to stop denying my body something which make it so happy.
When it comes to food, I am not going to just go out and buy a ton of meat and cheese and mow it down. Master and me laughed thinking about that senario. Truthfully, I am probably going to be more what most people call a “flexitarian”, although I am not going to label myself as such. For those of you who have never heard of that, it means you eat vegetarian for most of your meals, but will eat meat if you are at a restaurant, or if you’re at a friend’s house or something. I’ve never really loved the taste of meat, so I really think that it is going to be just a rare couple times a week at most occurrence.
I have been speaking with Master about this for a while now. I’ve asked him if he would think any less of me for deciding to go back to being an omnivore. He said no. He told me that he was proud of me for giving veganism as much of a shot as I did. He told me he did not think he would be eating as healthy as he is now if I never went vegan. (My being vegan gave him a lot of chances to try new foods he had not heard of.) The thing that hit me the most was how he said:
“You’re human. You’re allowed a change of heart, or a change of mind, or a second opinion. You are allowed to re-examine the facts and decide that something isn’t for you after all. I am proud of you for being able to change your mind like this. I know it is hard for you, but I love you and support you.”
Deciding to do one thing and staying closed minded to all other opinions or thoughts on the matter would be ridiculous. I have made my choice, I’m going to eat meat and dairy again in small amounts, whenever me or Master sees fit. I am so very glad I had the opportunity to be vegan for as long as I was, I got a whole lot out of being vegan, and I will take a lot of that knowledge into my future food choices.
Viva la dynamic kitty!