It’s Gonna Be Okay

It has been almost a week since Master lost his job, and while we’re both still not happy, we’re feeling a lot better about the whole thing.  I mean, when Master initially lost his job three months ago it was a really hard process and we were grieving over it daily.  We had about two days of grief here and we’re mostly feeling okay.  It’s not that we didn’t do anything during those few days, either.  We sure did.  Master got on the phone with the heat assistance, food assistance, etc places and got those balls rolling.  We also got a letter saying we qualify for unemployment still, which was our main worry.  Now that we qualify for unemployment we’re both feeling a lot more hopeful.  Knowing that we’ll have enough money to pay the mortgage for at least a little while has us both feeling a lot more optimistic.  It is going to be okay.  I know it will.  It’s just that, in the first few days after something dramatic like this happens, it’s hard to really see that.  It’s still incredibly scary, but Master is sitting and looking for work or working on assistance programs constantly during the day.  I don’t feel completely secure and relaxed but we’re both feeling a lot better on the whole.

A few days after Master lost his job, we decided to return Serenade to the shelter.  We had her for three years, and we love her to bits and pieces, but unfortunately there was nothing left for us to do.  This had nothing to do with money.  Serenade’s biting had just reached a head for us and we could not keep living in a house with such a stressful animal.  Her new medicine was helping her a lot, but we couldn’t get her to take it after the first time she took it.  :(  We both felt like failures as far as being her caretakers, but some cats cannot be trained.  Serenade was partially feral due to being hoarded initially.  We were told that she would probably adapt with time, but it  never really got better.  We tried everything we were told, including talking to a cat behavioral specialist, and eventually we did need to give her up.  We do think she’ll be a nice barn cat for someone.  She likes to be near people, but she isn’t lovey-dovey.  With her hunting skills, we think she’ll be an excellent companion for someone, but just not us.  Her attacks continued as we couldn’t get her to take her meds (and we tried everything except physically prying her jaw open.  She was far too violent for that, and neither of us wanted to get bitten again.  We both have scars from her bites.)  It sucks, but she is at an amazing no kill shelter and we know she will be taken care of and they will eventually figure out the right home for her.

So, it has been an especially tough week for us.  Our morale is up, but we’re still worried.  Things are scary right now even if they are hopeful.  With Serenade gone, we both feel the loss, but it’s more of a relief than anything.  Even the shelter was surprised we kept her for so long and spent so much money on her trying to help her because “most people wouldn’t do that.”  Well, no one can say we didn’t try.  Our house wasn’t the right one for Serenade, but Styx is thriving here.  When we had Serenade, we felt like she was lucky to have us.  Having Styx feels like we’re lucky to have her.  It’s a much different feeling and we’re both feeling really happy that Serenade will be better off in the long run, and that our house has become a much less stressful place.

9 thoughts on “It’s Gonna Be Okay

  1. Hang in there, lovely! Hopefully my positive posts on Tumblr are helping. :) I’m doing it for myself and anyone who can benefit from them to get through the holidays right now, but I may continue into the new year. I kinda like them!!

    • @Kitty Actually, the other day I noticed your positive Tumblr posts and they really did help. I might be favoriting all of them right now. LoL. :)

      I am starting to feel a lot more positive now that we’ve qualified for a few forms of assistance. Knowing we’re good on the mortgage for at least a little while has me feeling a lot better. :)

  2. I’m glad that things are looking up, even a little. Losing Serenade is hard, but ultimately you have to do what is best for her, AND the both of you!

    When youre applying for assistance, make sure you get ALL your documents in a row. My sir and I just got denied because apparently I forgot ONE document (that said I earned more than I actually do, and was still under the assistance income limit, so go figure). Now I have to start over and apply again (for the 3rd time). Hope that doesn’t happen to you!

    Sending positive thoughts your way!

    • Thanks @sublea! We were lucky enough to be able to qualify for a few things. We’re still hoping on heat assistance but we have our fingers crossed. Having food stamps and unemployment is totally getting our morale up. Master spends time every single day job searching too so here is hoping that something comes up.

  3. house slave jessie says:

    Kitty i’m at a loss for words. I found out why Master Robert had the other girl in his bed. My three years of service are up. I got all of the money from Masters saving account that he set up for me and just basically kicked me to the curbe. Kitty what do i do? i have always had a Master. i have never been on my own before. i dont know what to do or where to go. Master Robert was kind enough to let me stay one more night but i must leave at 6 am before he wakes up. all i want to do is curl up in a ball and sob. Please get back to me as soon as you can please! :-( :-(

    • @house slave jessie I’m just so sorry Hon. ::big hugs:: I know it’s hard right now but there’s got to be a friend’s house or a shelter you can stay at. I don’t know where you live but if you can get on Google I would try looking for some shelters or getting in contact with local friends. I am so sorry sweetie. Sending good thoughts to you. <3

      • house slave jessie says:

        Got in contact with a old Master and currently staying with him. Ill get in touch later he wants to talk gtg.

        • I really hope you’ll be okay @house slave jessie! Sending you lots of good thoughts.

          • new ponygirl jessie says:

            Kitty great news….Master Brian has agreed to let me stay indefinitely. We and Masters lawyer are going over my old contract today. I feel like the luckiest girl in the world today! :-) just the other day i thought my life was over. i must go now Master says so. Have a good day Master Pravus and kitty.