This morning I’m sitting around waiting for a package to be delivered. No work until it gets here. Don’t worry though, I’m working late tonight since Master won’t be home until late because he has to go out to a dinner meeting. Boo. Don’t get me wrong, I understand it, I do! I want him to work if he needs to, it’s just hard to have to eat dinner alone. I dunno, cooking for one, eating in silence. Hell, I hate eating breakfast and lunch alone. I don’t mean to complain though, like I said, I understand it. It’s just hard. definitely makes the day feel longer anyway. Plus, I can’t help but be a little jealous that he gets to go out to eat. ^^
Yesterday I felt kind of like I failed when Master and me were playing. If you ask him he will tell you I did a good job. I’ve always held myself to high standards, (In all things, I don’t mean BDSM in general) and I just didn’t like how screamy, and squirmy I was. I’m pretty good at sitting still and being quiet if I am told to. I guess I’ll just have to try harder next time. lol. Not that you can always be good and get things done right, but it nags at me.
So I’m waiting around here for that trampoline we ordered last week, and I think it’ll be fun. Sometimes I just feel trapped and bored in this house all day. That’s why I go to lengths to buy what I consider to be “toys” to keep around in my bedroom. There’s two bedrooms in this apartment, and we’ve been using the smaller one as my work room, but I’ve been decorating it, and sort of making it into my own little sanctuary. If you went in there, you’d think two things immediately: 1- That I’m a gym rat, and 2- That I’m a kinky fucker. lol! There’s so many sex toys, whips, restraints, etc strewn about the room. But then there’s also a ton of dumbbells, ankle and wrist weights, yoga mat, balance ball, etc etc etc. I guess when your average person gets bored they turn to other things: TV, video games, food, naps… I’m more likely to do some yoga, or bust out the free weights. I think of it as “play time” and it’s fun to me. Can’t wait for my newest “toy”. ^^
Mew mew mew mew mew mew mew! =^.^=