Well, I did finally manage to get a date for the surgery. I’m going to have my foot fixed on Monday the 13th, at 7:30AM, though I have to be there at 5:30AM. I’ve never had surgery before (I mean, aside from wisdom teeth), so I’m not entirely sure what to expect. I’m honestly a lot more calm about it than I thought I’d be. I mean, at first I panicked spectacularly, but the more I go on with my life, but more I realize that this isn’t really an option for me. Sure, I could live with this gimpy foot forever, but seriously, I’d be missing out on so much that life has to offer. As it is, I’ve already had to cancel two events I love going to each year, because I knew my foot wouldn’t hold up. And while it was really lucky that we had a wheelchair over the Thunder weekend, I would rather not be pushed around in a chair for the rest of my life whenever I need to walk long distances.
I’m honestly not worried about how well I will or won’t heal from the surgery, truth be told. I’m not worried about the pain, or anything like that. What I am concerned about, is how well I will react to anesthesia. I’m really bad with lots of different drugs, and have a ton of allergies to drugs as well as just plain old adverse reactions. To be honest, I just have a lot of medical problems and the only thing which really scares me is the anesthesia. And like I said, I don’t have much of a choice or not. Well I do, but not if I want to live the quality of life I’m used to, pre March the first. I’ve been thinking about it a lot, and the actual surgery itself is only forty-five minutes long, and the anesthesiologist is getting paid over $600 for that time. (We have insurance, so we don’t owe all that). The more I think about that though… Someone is being paid an awful lot of money to just sit next to me and watch my vitals for the less than one hour that I’ll actually be knocked out. Honestly? Once I thought that over, it was pretty comforting. I know there’s no guarantees or anything on how I’ll react to a drug, but that made me feel pretty confident. Plus, as strange as this sounds.. I’ve been thinking about how my Mom went through her surgeries.. And she’s got a bad heart and cancer, but she’s always made it through just fine. Again, I know there are no guarantees, but it really is making me feel better thinking about all the people who are watching out for me, or are sicker than I am and who have made it through with little to no problems. (Though I wouldn’t wish anyone to need any kind of surgery. Let’s just all not get sick or injured, okay?)
So that’s where I am at, mentally at least. I’m feeling a lot more calm and confident, although I am sure that when I get closer to the actual date, some nerves might creep in. For now though, things are pretty good. =^^= I’m really lucky, because Master took that Monday off to help take care of me (you can’t drive yourself home after anesthesia, so I needed him to be there), but he also felt that it would be good to just take one day off so that he could help me if I was too bonkers from the anesthesia to think straight. Hopefully that won’t be the case.
Silly little side note, I’ve had lots of piercings before (though, most were retired for different reasons), and each time I got a body mod, I went out with a friend for a huge sushi dinner. I’ve decided that surgery to remove part of my bone counts as a “Body mod”, and Master is taking me out for a huge sushi dinner, and a friend of ours is coming along too. I’m really looking forward to it. I nearly never go out to eat sushi in a restaurant, I mainly wind up with the sushi from grocery stores, which is nice too.. But this is just extra special. =^^=
NOTE: I don’t normally do this, because I believe in freedom of speech, but please don’t anyone leave me any negative surgery comments. I don’t want to get scared unnecessarily, so please, leave your horror stories and super bad surgery experiences behind. At the moment, I am calm and relaxed, and I really would like to keep things that way. Good thoughts, well wishes, and other happy comments welcome. Negative or rude surgery comments will be deleted. I’m sorry, but that’s the way this post has to be.